I thought this would take 5 minutes.
Monday, 8/10/26
I wanted a new photograph of me with my kids for my site. Just us, doing what we did most summer mornings before heading off to the pool.
I do this for a living. I know the setup. I told my kids, “Five minutes, tops.”
My kids were totally into it at first.
Then the bribes kicked in.
But they weren’t actually the reason it was taking so long.
I was.
I’d take a picture, walk back to the camera, and immediately find something I didn’t like about myself. My hair, my legs, my smile. There was always something.
Try again.
Nope.
Again.
At some point, the irony wasn’t lost on me.
I spend so much time telling families they don’t need to perform for me. That their kids don’t need to cooperate. That nothing needs to be perfect.
And there I was, having a really hard time giving myself the same permission.
I wish I could say I suddenly loved every picture of myself.
I didn’t.
But I stopped trying to fix them.
And now I have pictures of me with my kids.
That was the whole point.

